Where will the Monday take us?


So it’s Monday once more?? And I’ve to confess I really feel a bit higher on this Monday than I usually do.  I’m simply not likely positive why.  All the similar issues are happening.  Similar points, similar issues.  Similar stessors.  But for some purpose I really feel a bit extra constructive relating to my outlook on these points than I often do.

I assume I’ll attribute that to one among two issues.

  1.  Constructive efforts I’ve been making recently  (running a blog extra,  going to church and feeding my religion extra recurrently, logging meals and turning into extra acutely aware of what I’m consuming and exercising once more) could also be working to enhance my outlook.  Having made some progress (nevertheless minimal) in these areas which were missing could be the purpose I’ve been feeling much less depressed and extra constructive about every little thing normally.  And maybe the train endorphins are serving to too.  This stuff could possibly be the cause I really feel oddly upbeat on a Monday morning    OR…….
  2. I’ve lastly misplaced it.  You understand…like these individuals who having lastly reached the peak of what their stress degree can tolerate after which simply go utterly bonkers.  They’re in some straight jacket laughing hysterically at every part that occurs regardless of how dangerous it’s.  There they’re off in the nook rocking in a chair smiling at the ceiling speaking to themselves oblivious to every little thing round them.

Okay come on…it’s not that dangerous but.  Besides I do speak to myself.  I’ve all the time accomplished that.  I feel it’s a aspect impact of being raised as an solely youngster for awhile.  My brother was eight years older than me and at some extent both in boarding faculty or school even once I was nonetheless younger.  It was simply me, myself and I.  Not a whole lot of neighborhood youngsters to play with.   My childhood consisted of a number of dolls and imaginary pals.  So yeah….I speak to myself.

Thank God they invented these ear items.  Now you’ll be able to speak to your self in the automotive or the retailer and nobody even bats an eye fixed.  They only assume you’re on the telephone!! The opposite day I used to be speaking to myself in the kitchen and Charlotte interrupts me to ask a query.  Once I was carried out answering her query, I attempted to get again to MY dialog (LOL)  however I had misplaced my practice of thought.  I mumble “I don’t remember what i was saying now…” and Charlotte yells from the different room…”You have been saying….blah blah blah”  and she or he nailed it.

Okay so perhaps I ought to get a deal with on that self speak!!!

However again to the sample of dangerous issues occurring.  Do you ever really feel like that on sure days? When it looks like one dangerous factor occurs after one other.  When nothing can ever go your means.  I really feel like I’ve been dwelling underneath some sort of ‘curse’ should you will for a really very long time.  Like I pissed off the mistaken individual they usually’re on the market with some type of Holly voodoo doll shoving pins in it for enjoyable.  Have you ever ever felt that method??

As I discussed earlier than, life has been fascinating.  I moved to Virginia and it didn’t work out.  So I moved again however that wasn’t straightforward.  I  needed to promote a home earlier than I might purchase one.  In fact keep in mind I bought a home to purchase one in Virginia.  Then I needed to promote the home in Virginia to purchase one right here however in the meantime I rented.  And the individuals I rented from informed me I might purchase that home (at a worth we agreed on) as soon as mine bought.  Solely when my home bought, they raised the worth.  BY 30,000 DOLLARS

Phrase to the clever: GET EVERYTHING IN WRITING

You see they figured as soon as I had gone to the hassle to maneuver myself and all three of my youngsters in there—I wouldn’t need the problem of shifting once more.  They have been proper however I additionally wasn’t going to be robust armed into paying 30,000 dollars extra for a home that fairly frankly wasn’t value it.  It already had quite a few issues that had not been fastened.  To be trustworthy the worth we agreed on was fairly beneficiant to start with.  Nobody else would have purchased it for that worth.  However we have been buddies.


Pals from church no much less

After which they awakened in the future and stated….it’s Holly.  She’s on her personal.  She is alone.  Let’s screw her over.

Okay who is aware of what they really stated.  Who is aware of in the event that they even THOUGHT that.  That is the place we insert my preconceived notions about how individuals view me.  That is the place I insert a minor subplot of my sufferer mentality for being a single divorced mom.  And the place I’m positive that everybody on the market sees me as weak, alone and a straightforward goal.  Like if you take your automotive in to get one thing minor fastened they usually attempt to inform you that the complete engine must be changed as a result of they know you don’t have a clue anyway.  Or the time my air conditioner was on the fritz and I used to be informed I wanted to pay eight,000 for a brand new one.  However in the finish I simply wanted a small half changed that value 80 dollars.

So I’ve points.  We’ve established that.  However shifting again to the matter at hand….

Not solely did they need me to purchase the home for an inflated worth however they needed to promote it to me AS-IS.

It had a gap in the kitchen ceiling!! A gap which leaked literal crap from the upstairs rest room.


Isn’t that poetic?  It’s how I really feel very often recently.  Like the world is simply leaking crap on my head for no purpose.  Like I’m making an attempt my greatest to stay a very good life and take care of my youngsters however as an alternative somebody cuts a gap in the ceiling of my life and flushes sh*t down it simply because they will.

This morning my ex-husband nonetheless needs to take me again to courtroom to decrease youngster help.  My van continues to be in the store due to a automotive accident and I’ve to pay a 500 deductible proper earlier than Christmas.  It’s raining like loopy and my roof determined to leak…AGAIN.  And the chihuahua acquired my favourite pair of footwear and chewed them to shreds.  Oh did I point out that this weekend I went to Ross and in the checkout lane the candle I used to be shopping for rolled out of the cart and shattered right into a thousand items on the flooring actually sending a bit of glass backwards into the woman behind me and chopping her ankle???!!!!   Oh my gosh I felt dangerous.

However like…REALLY????  Final night time I spilled tea—HOT TEA—throughout myself whereas sitting in the chair.  And this morning I ate a breakfast taco (shouldn’t have executed that anyway) and someway…don’t ask me how….I touched my eye which apparently had some remnants of a jalapeno on it and I assumed I used to be going to go BLIND!  My daughter ordered this shampoo off the web that’s purple.  It’s alleged to lighten the blonde in your hair.  And I had an allergic response to it.  So my complete head was itching like loopy. I needed to tear my entire scalp off.  Even my eyes swelled up.  Fortunately it went away in 24 hours however simply in time for me to shove a jalapeno in there and run away crying in ache once more! AAAH!

Why is that this my life???!

Let me cease earlier than this practice will get uncontrolled as a result of if I keep in mind appropriately I began out saying I felt POSITIVE about right now!!!  Okay…U TURN.

SO….all the craziness apart….I’m making some small progress.  We went to church this weekend and my pastor stated one thing which struck me.   He stated in case you are scuffling with one thing in your life (one thing you need to give up).  Albeit medicine or donuts…no matter the case…then simply keep in mind this:

If you are able to do it for 7 days then you are able to do it for 7 weeks.

If you are able to do it for 7 weeks then you are able to do it for 7 months.

If you are able to do it for 7 months then you are able to do it for 7 years.

And that jogs my memory of 30 seconds!  If you are able to do one thing for 30 seconds then you are able to do it for a minute.  A minute turns into extra.  And that’s progress!

I’ve talked about Leslie Sansone many occasions on right here.  Once I first began out I did simply 2 minutes of a Leslie DVD.  Including 30 seconds day by day.  I proceed to return to her repeatedly as a result of (for me) it’s simply Do-able.  It’s one thing I don’t hate.  It’s straightforward.  You are able to do it in your home in your pajamas if you need.  Virtually no effort is required to tug up a video and there are such a lot of of them it might be exhausting to get bored.  She just lately got here out with an app referred to as Day by day Stroll.  So I downloaded it.  It’s four.99/month and day-after-day you get a brand new video to do.  She has sufficient that she will undoubtedly have a brand new one day by day.  I’ve determined to make a dedication to doing THAT for my train day by day.  I’m not even going to consider it.  It’s so easy for me I don’t should even plan forward.  I simply put it on the display and go.

Now I will say that oddly sufficient for an app referred to as “DAILY walk”…there are relaxation days.  At first I used to be like…YES! However then I used to be like “If I’m paying for an app that is supposed to give me daily walk videos then I think there should be daily walk videos”  I really like Leslie Sansone so I’m not going to complain but when I WAS going to complain…that may in all probability be a minor factor I might add when speaking about this app.

I additionally don’t like that it solely works on my telephone or an ipad.  I need to watch it by means of the Roku or Amazon Hearth apps on my television.  Or by way of the pc.  My telephone display is just too small!! So if I might change something it will be that.  Aside from that…I’m loving it.  I’m truly getting off my butt and strolling.  And I do know strolling works.  It’s the foremost type of train I used to lose 250 kilos and it continues to be (for me) the best type of train to comply with by means of with.

Listed here are some screenshots in case you’re keen on what it appears like:



















I depart you with this image of me, Charlotte and CJ from Saturday night time when the energy went out.  Right here we’re in the darkish.


That’s CJ’s minecraft torch in the background giving us a bit of mild!  We spent the entire time making hand shadow puppets, making up tales and lauging.  To be trustworthy, it was certainly one of the greatest nights we’ve had in a very long time.  So I assume that proves that being in the darkish isn’t all the time dangerous.  Good issues CAN come from it.  It’s in the darkish the place we frequently develop.  Where the whole lot else could be stripped away and we get again to fundamentals.  And the place we frequently study the most from one another.

So hey…if somebody needs to chop a gap in my kitchen ceiling and flush crap down on me.   Okay.   If my automotive is wrecked and I’m going again to courtroom once more and even the candle I attempt to purchase at Ross jumps out of my cart and assaults the woman behind me…..THAT IS OK.  As a result of I’m going to rise up in the morning and do my stroll with Leslie. Drink my espresso.  Do the laundry and go to work.  And if the energy goes out, I’ll mild a candle.  A candle of religion.   A candle that claims….don’t hand over.  Don’t cease believing that good issues can occur.   And don’t let any circumstance steal your hope.  I’ve been permitting that to occur for much too lengthy.   Let right now be the starting of every week the place I refuse to remain down.  Where I refuse to play the sufferer.  Every week the place I create prospects as an alternative of squander them.  Sure!! Now that feels like the solution to do a Monday!





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